These are days you'll remember...

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 00:41:07 GMT

"Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean I didn't try it at the time."

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 12:54:30 GMT

Goodbye, America...

Bonjour, Suisse! :D

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:56:51 GMT

I feel like JD in the My Fault episode of Scrubs. Only, not.
Well, kind of.
Maybe?

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 03:13:10 GMT

Have you heard the song Persephone by Third Eye Blind? Probably not. But it's a great song.

Kelly e-mailed me yesterday and she wants me to work the entire summer. I can't be happier.

I wish it were April 1st so I can finalize my idiot college plans and stop worrying about them. This whole waiting thing is just annoying. I've had my apps in since October 27th. Enough waiting.

I need to sleep. A lot.
Lent starts tomorrow. I'm giving up sweets (again) and hoping I'll be successful this time since I wasn't last year. Those damn snow days and baking parties just messed me up. But I can do it this time. For sure.

I might go to Switzerland over Spring Break.

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 12:44:59 GMT

On the way to the district speech meet. This bus is cold.
I just listened to God of Wine by Third Eye Blind. It suddenly had so much more meaning to me this time. I don't really know why, but it just had so much more emotion or something. Those last couple lines really hit me. That whole song is so incredible.
Then Black Rock by OAR came on and it made me want summer so bad. OAR reminds me of the climbing tower two summers again when I spent all my free time at the climbing wall with Timmy Sheetz and everyone. I miss that summer... it might have been my favorite. I can't wait til this summer but I'm also scared because after this summer, I have no idea what's in store for me school-wise. This could possibly be the last summer I can spend a big chunk of time at 16430. That scares me. I hope my colleging doesn't make me lose Fitching time. Not yet anyway.

But Fitch is four and a half months away. For now I want to focus my energy on my friends and having fun with them since we're all going in different directions next year. That's also scary. I don't know what I'm going to do without them. I hope these next few months are amazing.

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:39:38 GMT

I feel better right now, health-wise and otherwise. This weekend is bound to be a fun one even if it is very busy. I think I'm mostly greatful for the extra day off today because I have so much make up work from Monday and Tuesday.

Tonight I have Celebrate for 5+ hours, but that's okay because I love Celebrate.
Tomorrow is Sweethearts and I think it's gonna be fun. I like getting dressed up.
And Sunday Taryn might come visit :) but if she doesn't, I'm hoping to join my friends at Brandywine for some skiing/tubing action.

I still need to build my physics mobile. I'm gonna use beachglass and sand as weights with hemp as ties from the sticks to the weights. And I'm gonna like it a lot, cause I like beachglass and hemp.

Speaking of which, today I got my rags letter which is perfect because not only did I get a letter from my summer self, reminding me of my Mind Body and Spirit goals, but the timing was perfect. I came home August 16th 2008, and staff training starts June 16th, and today, January 16th, is exactly half-way between each of those. 5 months since, 5 months until. That's a nice feeling.

I'm not excited for finals, but once they pass, grades don't matter, and that is definitely a nice feeling.

Happy 18th, Lizey :)

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 01:18:10 GMT

Today I bought two live John Mayer albums that I neglected to purchase immediately after their release. (I know, crazy, right?) They are "Where the Light is: Live in Los Angeles" and "as/is".

And I am rediscovering how amazing he is.
Not that I ever doubted it or anything, 'cause I didn't.

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 02:00:21 GMT

Suddenly, I feel like I don't belong. Actually, it's not so sudden. It's been like this for a while.

And I have no idea what to do about it.

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 05:53:41 GMT

Today is my 18th birthday. And it is also 60º out. In Ohio. So uncommonly incredible. I had a really nice party with some great friends and great food. My siblings are all home (save one) and we're going to the Melting Pot for dinner. I'm very excited.

The 29th is the Camp reunion and I'm really excited for that, too.
And the 30th I might go visit another camp friend.

I love camp, friends, birthdays, out-of-season warm weather, cupcakes, chocolate fondue, etc. etc. etc.

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 01:04:01 GMT

My car hit 100,000 miles today.
I'm kind of sad.

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 02:07:30 GMT

Well, I got deferred at Brown. But I'm kind of happy about it. I really love Northeastern, too, and it is actually in Boston which is where I want to be. Brown probably would have ended up being cheaper, though, but now my chances of getting in are slim. Still, with a deferral, I will have options. I'm not committed to go anywhere and that's a nice feeling. Now I just have to wait until the end of March to find out about Brown & NEU. And if neither of them work out, there's always Dayton or Xavier because I already got in to those two places and I do really like then, Dayton especially.

Well, that's all. Just had to... say words. Write words? Whatever.

Oh, and... I'm excited to go to Beachwood on Saturday with Jodi and Chris to visit Taryn and watch her be in Wizard of Oz. I love camp people.

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 00:37:52 GMT

The past few weeks haven't been great. In fact, I was pretty down for a while. Then this weekend happened:

For weeks, friends from camp had been asking me if I'd be at the reunion weekend (which was this past weekend), and every time I responded that I couldn't because it was the Boardman speech tournament, and I couldn't miss it.
Thursday night I laid my suit out so it would be ready for Friday. I woke up Friday with the weirdest feeling-- the thought of going to the speech meet just felt so wrong. I felt this really strong need for camp. I called my sister and told her I was coming. I got there Friday evening and surprised everyone. It was really exciting to see them, and it ended up being lucky I was there because a few people backed out last minute so I was actually needed.

I spent Friday to Sunday at my favorite place with people I've been missing a lot. Saturday night was so fun and made me really excited for summer when I can be with all those people every day for weeks, playing Ten Fingers and eating Jim&Sues.

Now I feel 200% better. Things that were really pissing me off before don't even bother me anymore. It's amazing the impact following my gut and going to Fitch for the weekend had on me.

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 20:14:04 GMT

Today I determined that about 35% of my Facebook friends are people I know because of camp. 265/765. Crazy right? Actually I think the craziest part is that I was bored enough to count that. But still, I know so many people because of that place. And that is something I felt like mentioning.

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 12:24:29 GMT

I had a kind of bad break, to be honest. I did a whole lot of nothing, but not the good kind.

I can't believe it's already December.

I have a lot to do before Christmas. Actually, I really don't. I'm not sure why I just said that.

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 03:01:56 GMT

And in this dream, I said, "...because you know what would happen if you would just let it go!"
Then you punched a van. There was no sound... just a big dent.

But you knew I was right.

That was just a dream.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 01:38:25 GMT

Still I recoil like mace
In all the little moments I pushed you away that I can't erase
Every moment overflows with power
Sixty-six thousand miles and hour

And if you ever find a way to forgive me
And if you ever find a way to put this all to rest
Because I'm hanging on your dress, now, like a little boy
When all that you wanted
All that you wanted was a good man.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 21:42:57 GMT

I saw my kindergarten teacher today. She remembered me, which is something I always find impressive about elementary shcool teachers. She had me as a student when I was five or six and she still remembers me, twelve years later. She told me my skin looked great.

What a strange comment.

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 03:46:01 GMT

As I was(/am) futilely trying to write my English paper on the King James Version of the Bible, I remembered the time in August when everyone was home for Lilia's baptism and Jimmy & Grace's coming home party.

We were at church and I was sitting next to Scott. We were singing the song that goes, "Sing a new song unto the Lord" and he leaned over and said, "You know, this song tells me to sing a new song, but I've been singing the same one my whole life."

And that made me laugh.

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 19:50:51 GMT

I submitted my Common Application today. I submitted all my supplements, payments, and had my scores sent a few days ago. All that's left is for Mr Ewing to send in my transcript.

I am officially done applying to college.
And it is only October. Amazing.

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 21:29:49 GMT

There are only seven bands/artists represented in my iTunes Top 25 Most Played songs: Coldplay, Death Cab, John Mayer, Lifehouse, Matchbox 20, Say Anything, and Third Eye Blind.

No Counting Crows! I'm surprised.

I really don't know how to do this physics lab.

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 01:06:32 GMT

And feel. Feel what it's like to be new.

(again.)

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 04:50:38 GMT

Have you heard the acoustic version of Have You Seen Me Lately? It's really good. It changes the tone from almost spiteful and energetic to kind of regretful and sad. Oh, Adam Duritz... you never cease to amaze me.

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 01:56:13 GMT

Apparently the killer grades I used to get in French are now going to my calc grade. I got a B+ on my French test and a 98% on my calc test which is completely backwards from every other test in the two subjects that I have taken in my entire high school career.

But I think I'm okay with that.

And now it is time to go study for French.

Oh, and tonight at Celebrate, Joe and I got married. We also had a child who was an adorable stuffed girl monkey (and looked just like his father, of course) whose name was Theo Joseph Stazak III. Precious. Special thanks to all the girls who made my dress of toilet paper truly beautiful and of course to my Maid of Honor (and TJ's Godmother) Kayla Ann Lewis. I couldn't have done it without you. Hahaha I love C-brate.
"PIMP: Prayer Inspires Many People. We is fine; Celebrate '09." (The true 2009 acronym, if only in our hearts.)

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 21:36:15 GMT

A few different things that happened this weekend that have caused me to feel so much better.
A huge decrease in stress, some peace of mind, and a weekend in my favorite town with family and beautiful weather... I couldn't have asked for anything better.

I think I need to be there. Really, need.

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 20:17:46 GMT

Well, hello Boston. Good to see you again! It's only been 6 and a half months since I saw you last, but that was too long. With any luck, I will be able to call you home in a few months. Wouldn't that be nice?

I am staying with Scott and Regina until Sunday. Today my parents and I are going to check out Tufts and Northeastern and I'm really nervous for some reason! But also excited. Tomorrow we're going to Providence to see Brown. I can't wait. Ahhh I love this part of the country. The weather is supposed to be nice all weekend and the trees everywhere are stunning. Everything is radiating the color of fire and it looks so beautiful.

I love this town.